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Made a Bharat chan song
/DFN - diary of a failed normie/
1EDXh1
No.1180
randomness mostly. no structure. sometimes as clipboard, sometimes as a blog.
how are you doing fren?
z6XG5F
No.1181
>>1180(OP)
Same
1EDXh1
No.1182
1EDXh1
No.1183
thoughts lost
words predictable
all fallen into an algorithmic flow
no novelty
no new ways
have become what i hated
or thought i hated
where are my thoughts
where am i
what?
qFnzQf
No.1184
qFnzQf
No.1185
Idk what it means but I increasingly find more comfort among nature and animals than with humans. Maybe something is wrong with me or with them.
1EDXh1
No.1186
de-algorithmization (does this word exists) of brain but how?
-> no youtube
-> no music
if need be, download music vastly different from what I have always listened to.
do not fall into the trap of listening to romantic songs, in any language. if do make sure not to get influenced by it. if the effects are too strong leave, do not listen. music is propaganda tool
use yt-dlp. divide songs into folders named after language. use syncthing to sync with phone
1EDXh1
No.1187
>>1185
comfy picture
1EDXh1
No.1188
>>1184
that's how i found the site. s0mthing habbening soon
1EDXh1
No.1189
>>1185
same. the noise is too much
qFnzQf
No.1190
>>1186
I feel this too, also now they insert background music in documentaries and other videos for "engagement" and "user retention". Bleh
1EDXh1
No.1191
1EDXh1
No.1196
low quality posts every minute or good posts every few hours?
1EDXh1
No.1197
is adhd level activity is boards a good thing, not considering the post quality? no idea. you hve to consider the posts to determine whether it's good or bad to have more of it
qFnzQf
No.1198
>>1197
Increase in amount of total posts will automatically also cause an increase in rise of good quality posts. It's the responsibility of the admins/mods to have systems such that both types of contents are allowed to the same extent but separated as much as possible.
1EDXh1
No.1199
>>1198
good point. I wonder why Dyaus isn't removing the new user limit given there are multiple mods now
ve3tkc
No.1200
>>1199
His arch-nemesis is just too strong, even dayu and the 3 mods cant contain him
qFnzQf
No.1201
>>1199
More so of a hobby project to him than an actual site with a future, hence such things don't matter in his overall goal.
m/Bptl
No.1202
>>1186
>de-algorithmisation
the reason why the sock fits is because you have feet(as such) not because the sock changes the foot to fit it.
ve3tkc
No.1203
>>1186
>listening to romantic songs
I have never actively listend to a romantic song, I cant ever relate to it. Most Indian songs are centered around romance/breakup.
1EDXh1
No.1204
>>1201
Won't lie this place is quite comfy. The newbie limit is a big filter but Dyaus did say it's intentional to filter out users who can't first wait to post. Maybe he's hoping maximum of only those who want to say something meaningful, or won't mind waiting, would stay, and the site will be a haven for just those few people.
1EDXh1
No.1205
>>1203
I can only partially relate to them and that too only to a tiny extent. Can say it's just bad taste in music and no thought put over the material I am listening to from my end.
1EDXh1
No.1206
>>1202
The foot now remembers and even expects the sock. To walk barefoot would be the only choice and even then the foot is always prone to express a longing for the sock. Doesn't matter whether the sock affected it in a negative way or not
so shapeable that algorithms have changed the course of my life both external and internal and made me just another automaton
qFnzQf
No.1207
I just coomed today, after I don't know how many days of avoiding.
Felt so good for 15 seconds, feel so bad for an hour now.
Brootal
qFnzQf
No.1208
And that too, to a fully clothed gook woman.
So embarrassing
qFnzQf
No.1210
>>1209
Yaar mujhe toh randomly boners aa jaate hain even when I have no sexual thoughts. Bodies way of telling me to spread me seed or something, now who can explain this to 2000 yrs of evolution that it is not possible like this anymore.
ve3tkc
No.1211
>>1210
Boners mean dick is still working.its good.
Once stress gets into your life it will go away forever
qFnzQf
No.1212
Since I have always used a separate browser for this stuff instead of incognito, I tried to characterize my cooming by race and content. Based on browser history alone.
Around:
25% to actual porn videos. (Any race)
~30% to White women/latina
~10% to Pajeetas
Rest 35% to east asians.
Anyways I have deleted any remaining content and links, I thought sheer willpower would be enough, it worked for some time but not anymore.
>>1211
I try not to think about the bad things anymore.
m/Bptl
No.1216
>>1210
Its a good thing I suppose, better than impotence.
>>1206
you cannot 'de-algorithmise', other than stripping yourself of your instincts.
Its rather painful and neither effective to self-flagellate and deprive yourself. Its rather much better to truly realise its 'uselessness' and shirk it off. (addiction is really a matter of having too much free time I feel (the devil's workshop runs in full swing!))
Well, a more effective method is to channel your addiction into something of a 'higher quality' into something say, more useful to you. You have a capacity of interest, that is why you youtube and music. Maybe focus on kalej more, listen to music that makes you think, watch youtube that makes you learn(that essentially makes you not wanna watch youtube and do something).
I used to watch (in hindsight) pretty stupid shit when I was young, like a child who is attracted by the jingling of keys in front off him, or the donkey by the carrot that he cannot reach. Growing up you (hopefully) generally shirk this off. I guess its a part of the crisis you face by 'self-intellectualising' (what am I doing with my life?).
Speaking of quality, I remember schopenhauer's essay on reading(I suggest you read it its called 'on reading and books', but it applies to every interest that requires some form of consumption) and this quote:-
'One can never read too little of bad,
or too much of good books: bad books
are intellectual poison; they destroy
the mind'
Its not a matter of consuming its a matter of consuming well.
In terms of good music I'd recommend this(put it on when you're doing something if you find it too long) :-
https://youtube.com/playlist?list=OLAK5uy_ktk8PtkXO8GdshsmXb6w0fhaCMMTsyFio&si=EwJF8cgPh0ATOO0q
consuming well greatly improves the quality of your work (its makes it enjoyable almost!).
1EDXh1
No.1227
>>1216
Very thanks for the suggestions anon. I agree with much of what you say about consuming being inevitable and it's a matter of what you consume that makes the difference. My case has just been that I got too snug and comfortable in the stupidity that I gulped every single day for the past I don't know how many years and desensitized my brain and ultimately lost the very ability to think clearly and coherently. Coombrain'd too hard.
I read the essay that you suggested. A re-read is needed just as he said in the essay, to get a feel for what is to come and set the mood right.
>The heavy armour turns to a cloak of flight,
Brief is the sorrow, and endless the delight.
>consuming well greatly improves the quality of your work (its makes it enjoyable almost!).
Will give my best to get away from the mediocrity I have consoomed for so long and for once try to do what ought to be done
1EDXh1
No.1230
Watched "A Wind Named Amnesia". Wasn't that good.
cStNE6
No.1231
End of another chapter in my life today.
1EDXh1
No.1232
C418 - Farewell
-
1EDXh1
No.1233
Saw a video of a kid (not more than 12) doing codewars and writing beautiful solution to a problem.
comparison is bad and all when it leads to self-loathing and inaction but can't expect anything else after seeing nanhas doing so so much better with their lives and comparing ourselves.
shit yaar.
eRp2wk
No.1234
circumstances of different people are different. there will always be those who are better at you.
but your efforts is yours, find a thing you care about - work on it. even if there are different many doing the same or even better - still your effort will not go in vain. do not fret about others.
1EDXh1
No.1235
Kino vidrel. Somehow feels dreamlike and ethereal
1EDXh1
No.1236
good morning sirs
1EDXh1
No.1237
1EDXh1
No.1239
The Intelligence Quran
github.com/jivoi/awesome-osint
github.com/lockfale/OSINT-Framework
github.com/Ph055a/OSINT_Collection
github.com/imuledx/OSINT_sources
github.com/sinwindie/OSINT
github.com/hgascon/security-datasets
github.com/ex16x41/OSINT
github.com/IVMachiavelli/OSINT_Team_Links
github.com/jaikishantulswani/awesome-osint
github.com/SiloGit/curated_OSINT_resources
github.com/priyankvadaliya/AwsomeOSINT
github.com/tracelabs/awesome-osint
github.com/UticaCollegeCyberSecurityClub/Resources#osint
github.com/blaCCkHatHacEEkr/OSINT_TIPS
github.com/DavidJKTofan/CyberSec-resources/blob/master/OSINT_resources.md
github.com/v2-dev/awesome-social-engineering#osint
github.com/blaCCkHatHacEEkr/PENTESTING-BIBLE
github.com/hslatman/awesome-threat-intelligence
github.com/redhuntlabs/Awesome-Asset-Discovery
github.com/loganmeetsworld/awesome-newsroom-tech
github.com/sindresorhus/awesome
github.com/bayandin/awesome-awesomeness
github.com/jnv/lists
gitlab.com/tzkuat/Ressources
github.com/sherlock-project/
gitlab.com/soxoj/maigret
inteltechniques.com
www.osinttechniques.com/osint-resources/
osint.link/
www.toddington.com/
osint.best/
www.aware-online.com/en/
old.reddit.com/r/OSINT/wiki/
old.reddit.com/r/controllablewebcams/
www.technisette.com/
transparencytoolkit.org/tools/
www.exploit-db.com/
www.cvedetails.com/
web.archive.org/web/20170201204117/myspace.thecthulhu.com/
web.archive.org/web/20180815000000*/cdn.databases.today/exploit.in.zip
web.archive.org/web/20190720112353/http://cdn.databases.today/
openstreetcam.org/
www.shodan.io/
recontool.org/
http://pwndb2am4tzkvold.onion/
www.exploitee.rs/
synapsint.com/
www.bellingcat.com/
http://mvfjfugdwgc5uwho.onion/
www.blackhatworld.com/
hashes.org/
ghostproject.fr/
nulledbb.com/
www.nulled.to/
www.iotone.com/
snusbase.com/
link-base.org/
magma.lavafeld.org/
web.archive.org/web/20190102163529/http://www.philb.com/
www.sans.org/
web.archive.org/web/20180704080159/osintpost.com/
www.darpa.mil/program/memex
web.archive.org/web/20160306005826/http://opencatalog.darpa.mil/MEMEX.html
i-intelligence.eu/resources
dark.fail/
www.osintessentials.com/
300m.com/osint/
www.uk-osint.net/
www.andyblackassociates.co.uk/resources-andy-black-associates/osint-toolkit/
netbootcamp.org/
dehashed.com/
thecyberpost.com/
intelx.io/
midasearch.org/
yoga.osint.ninja/
start.me/p/b5Aow7/asint_collection
start.me/p/aL1rYE/tracing-arms-identifying-combatants
start.me/p/gyaOJz/investigator-tools
start.me/p/3g0aKK/sources
start.me/p/b57786/faros-terrorism-research
start.me/p/W1kDAj/geoint
start.me/p/gy1BgY/osint
start.me/p/ZME8nR/osint
start.me/p/DPNyrl/online-extremism-terrorism
start.me/p/wMdQMQ/tools
start.me/p/4K0DXg/social-media
start.me/p/rx6Qj8/nixintel-s-osint-resource-list
start.me/p/7kmvEK/oster
start.me/p/m6MbeM/social-media-intelligence-dashboard
start.me/p/W1AXYo/toolkit
start.me/p/xbqGMR/osint-investigacion-digital-para-delitos-financieros
start.me/p/1kvvxN/faros-osint-resources
start.me/p/7kxyy2/osint-tools-curated-by-lorand-bodo
start.me/p/rxRbpo/ti
start.me/p/ELXg5a/domainname-and-ip-search
start.me/p/ekq7Al/digital-forensics
start.me/p/7k4BnY/mapping-monitoring
start.me/p/Wp1kpe/socmint
start.me/p/DPYPMz/the-ultimate-osint-collection
start.me/p/3xMXnP/monitoring
start.me/p/b56xX8/osint
start.me/p/ydJLqE/deepweb-en-tools
start.me/p/ZMXLlA/imint-vi
start.me/p/7k48PK/jungla-osint-por-ra1000
start.me/p/GEbBzz/access-osint
start.me/p/q6QJXo/azuleonyx-osint
start.me/p/1kwrGp/terrorism-financing
start.me/p/RMKeQv/search-social-media
start.me/p/jjBklr/hacking-ctf
start.me/p/aLBELX/tutorials
start.me/p/0PGKad/darkweb
start.me/p/kx462X/osint-tools-miscellaneous
start.me/p/VvGz56/keywords
start.me/p/z42rLn/osints
start.me/p/vj9Yrb/covid19-osint-openfacto
start.me/p/gy0NXp/open-source-intelligence-osint
start.me/p/ELXoK8/bellingcat-osint-landscape
start.me/p/BnBb5v/jornadas-osint
start.me/p/PwlKgn/apt-osint-labs
start.me/p/rxeRqr/aml-toolbox
start.me/p/GE7JQb/osint
start.me/p/Zz4gyM/security
start.me/p/kxB4eX/brians-links-to-things
start.me/p/q6naJo/osint-links
start.me/p/b56G5Q/search-engines
start.me/p/gyvaAJ/open-source-investigative-tools
start.me/p/rxeRqr/aml-toolbox?embed=1&locale=cs
start.me/p/m6OJgv/the-bbc-africa-eye-forensics-dashboard
start.me/p/3y5nEE/adze-
1EDXh1
No.1240
Google Search Operators
“ ” Search for results that mention a word or phrase
OR Search for results related to X or Y
| Same as OR
AND Search for results related to X and Y
- Search for results that don’t mention a word or phrase.
* Wildcard matching any word or phrase
( ) Group multiple searches
define: Search for the definition of a word or phrase.
cache: Find the most recent cache of a webpage
filetype: Search for particular types of files (e.g., PDF)
ext: Same as filetype
site: Search for results from a particular website
related: Search for sites related to a given domain
intitle: Search for pages with a particular word in the title tag
allintitle: Search for pages with multiple words in the title tag
inurl: Search for pages with a particular word in the URL
allinurl: Search for pages with multiple words in the URL
intext: Search for pages with a particular word in their content
allintext: Search for pages with multiple words in their content
weather: Search for the weather in a location
stocks: Search for stock information for a ticker
map: Force Google to show map results
movie: Search for information about a movie
in: Convert one unit to another
source: Search for results from a particular source in Google News
before: Search for results from before a particular date
after: Search for results from after a particular date
zg/dCA
No.1242
>>1239
Post moar!
1EDXh1
No.1245
- https://one-plus.github.io/Bookmarks
- https://github.com/C3n7ral051nt4g3ncy/OSINT-Bookmarklets
- https://github.com/B0sintBlanc/Osint-Bookmarklets
- https://web.archive.org/web/20240326184524/https://www.osintcombine.com/osint-bookmarks
- https://annas-archive.gs/md5/624f353f1f13a2574b52b1563af2acc8
- http://libgen.rs/book/index.php?md5=4B471D4010A7E04BEA7616D0CC25455D
- https://www.secjuice.com/tag/osint/
>filerel
- OSINT Techniques
- OSINT and OnlyFans
1EDXh1
No.1246
Terrace in Kolkata
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1EDXh1
No.1249
can't expect to be good at anything with a personality entirely built of "i don't care"
1EDXh1
No.1250
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1EDXh1
No.1251
it's all just decisions. what you decide to do every day, every moment. it all has led to where you are and much likely also lead you somewhere, though with the way things' been, not where you want to be
still avoiding decisions? complacent and apathetic behavior again?
1EDXh1
No.1264
-
why sabotage yourself when you know that none give a flying fuck? it's a waste of time to suffer if the variables that can change your life are under your control
1EDXh1
No.1266
>If you do not stop now, you'll continue wanking 15 years later -- Duckanon
1EDXh1
No.1267
>Your attempt at glory is more important and beautiful than the glory itself.
1EDXh1
No.1269
1EDXh1
No.1279
sirs are planning a game. will be interesting to see where it goes
1EDXh1
No.1280
also, IDs seem to be saved between sessions even though I am using private tabs. server side stuff maybe
M3EuRI
No.1281
>>1280
That's because you use an account sir. Don't use accounts, they will basically build a complete profile on you.
Eij2t9
No.1282
>>1281
Says the namefag. Anyways this isn’t a Glowie site, it’s just dyaush jacking himself off. A glowie wouldn’t kill their own honeypot.
M3EuRI
No.1283
>>1282
>namefag
I don't do it all the time.
>Not a glowie site
Dyuash isn't a glowie, but when(not if) they come knocking at his door he will protect himself like any sane person and do what's asked.
Eij2t9
No.1284
>>1283
The site will fizzle out. He’s essentially killed it.
M3EuRI
No.1285
>>1284
Most likely yeah, no one wants to wait 12 hours to post on here of all places. It's not a secret club. It's not an Insider trading group. There are no girls here.
Eij2t9
No.1286
>>1283
Even if you don’t namefag, it’s not hard to tell apart people here, since there are like 10 active users. If you fed the data to chatgpt, it would identify your writing style and pick out everything you wrote with a high degree of certainty, regardless if you namefagged or not.
Eij2t9
No.1287
>>1285
*24
Eij2t9
No.1288
>>1285
I think pretty much everyone here, exept maybe 1 or 2 retards wants a new imageboard. It’s just that we’re all afflicted with the sin of sloth and no one’s gonna take up the mantle.
M3EuRI
No.1289
>>1287
It's 12 actually, it is just that cookies are handled in a retarded way.
Lets say you open the website for first time and click the acknowledgement button, a uid(x) is given to you from the server that activates you to post in 10-12 hours. This uid is stored in your cookies.
But, if you change theme during this time, the cookies get reset and you are given a new uid(y) so the timer resets.
If you login and logout during this time, the original uid(x) is lost again and you are given a new one(z) that comes with a new timer.
Basically in short, pajeetware.
>>1288
I can make one in like 2 days(vichan), but I don't know if anyone will join even and I can't pay more than 1,000 per month for hosting and domains combined.
Maybe DGH will do something, idk. But this is not the way.
Eij2t9
No.1290
>>1289
>But this is not the way.
Not sure what you mean. I think pretty much everyone is fed up at this point. A lot of people will jump ship.
M3EuRI
No.1291
>>1290
I meant dyaush is not handling it the correct way.
And yeah if an actual alternative comes up, most people will leave.
I remember Dyaush a few months ago calling vichan, LynxChan "readymade slop". But man if you are reading this, I would rather eat a ready-made pasta than diarrhea Inducing thele ka khana.
Eij2t9
No.1292
>>1291
Yaar sandas…
Eij2t9
No.1293
>>1291
>readymade slop
An image board is defined by its community, rules and culture. Not it’s layout, or muh emojis or muh gold jaggus. Listening to dyaushes views on imageboards is stupid, you’ve heard his takes before. He doesn’t understand what an imageboard is at a fundamental level.
M3EuRI
No.1294
>>1293
True, but it will be fine for him. He will slowly cultivate a user base that agrees with all this. And his political opinions and his randiraksha.
Anyways, goodnight.
M3EuRI
No.1295
Even just 2 months ago, site used to become so comfy by 3-4 am every night.
L4Ue5H
No.1296
>>1295
A fleeting moment in time just like this one
M3EuRI
No.1297
Neend nahi aa rahi thi...I was watching this edit and it kindoff made we realize why things in India are the way they are.
DTL2zP
No.1304
>>1288
Is a new imageboard really the way? Is BhaCh really that indefensible?
>>1291
>dyaush is not handling it the correct way
trve, it seems like he has his own ideas and is implementing those rather than the "natural inclination" of the users.
But like you said, eventually those who don't like it drop out, and only those who'll take it are left behind.
I had to make an account, kek, the 12 hour timer didn't let me in even after one full day
>>1297
Can you elaborate?
slktRS
No.1305
>>1304
>Can you elaborate
I feel that there is an absence of an actual identity and strong love for the soil among Indians, if you don't like anything about the place you live in then you will not get out to defend your presence there. This is why they prefer to become refugees instead of actually fighting, there is not much difference between living in a hut in one place and living in another hut somewhere else.
There is nothing that India does "best" that one will want to defend and keep in existence. The situation is such that even decades of propaganda does not make Indians feel prideful to their country. Particularly because nothing particularly special or glorious has happened here for hundreds of years now. Things just stay the way they are, maybe it is was a foreigner keeping you oppressed and poor yesterday, today it is an Indian. Fundamentally your life is the same.
slktRS
No.1306
I don't believe in the IQ stuff, because then that is basically the abandoning of all hope towards betterment.
But nothing will change with how things are now.
Retarded ethnic/language conflicts are beneficial to politics so they are promoted. Nobody wants to accept that this is your country, your reality so make the most out of it.
m/Bptl
No.1307
>>1305
>I feel that there is an absence of an actual identity and strong love for the soil among Indians
lol, lmao even.
!EEEH59Udqe0gbBg
laOU9X
No.1308
>>1305
i mean.. sure. but then again that is a very one-sided take. the truth is way more nuanced
u9k+5+
No.1309
>>1307
>lol, lmao even.
I am not talking about regionaly faggotery, I meant as a national identity.
And also online comments don't count.
m/Bptl
No.1310
>>1309
you're delusional, dude. Injuns are unironically some of the most patriotic people (its the pattern with thirdie nations).
source : https://www.pewresearch.org/religion/2021/06/29/nationalism-and-politics/
all you've said so far is conjecture, just because you hold such a rationale doesn't mean everyone else needs to/does.
u9k+5+
No.1313
>>1310
>average 96% of all adults very proud of their country.
>vast majority believe India culture is superior
Maybe I am missing some 2nd step in this conclusion, but how can people love their country but at the same dirty it so much. Ignorace is not even an excuse anymore after so many ads so many repeated messaging.
How can you love your country and throw litter outside, how can you love your country and pee in front of the wall. It does not seem to be just a poverty issue as I have seen well off people do the first thing too so many times.
!EEEH59Udqe0gbBg
laOU9X
No.1314
>>1313
cognitive dissonance. it's also like how you would take a bullet for your parents but won't clean a dirtied plate if they told you to.
m/Bptl
No.1315
>>1313
its an upbringing issue, lee kuan yew talks of it :
https://youtube.com/shorts/Mgpb_R38b2Y?si=KgOJbQs-p5IPIsDp
wisdom of the stick is required is instill discipline beyond upbringing.
4oHDhJ
No.1316
>>1180(OP)
just ride the tiger anon
1EDXh1
No.1319
is shit like "shadow", "naf", jungian inner child even real.
1EDXh1
No.1320
>>1319
it's almost as if those concepts are tailor made for people like me, unthinking, gullible and very often retarded to associate with and feel victimized by. watched a few videos about it and felt like it
1EDXh1
No.1321
>>1320
psyche is messed up on so so many levels that can't even go about trying to fix it without changing the very foundations of my being. and the being that currently is doesn't want to go away, so it's always the same story
1EDXh1
No.1322
>>1321
stop getting urges to watch p*rn, here comes the inner desire to just go watch it again just so the self-hating (or in its own interpretation, a preserver of the current self) can assure its existence
1EDXh1
No.1323
>>1322
basically sabotaging my own well being and trying to ruin things before they get any better just so the "comfort" of self-loating doesn't go away
1EDXh1
No.1324
>>1323
tf man
Hlif9L
No.1334
give up on discipline and you lose the foundation upon which to build your character
-- some math teacher
klfwVG
No.1338
No motivasun only self-awareness
1EDXh1
No.1357
made custom css for personal use too. needs a lot of polishing
1EDXh1
No.1360
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}1EDXh1
No.1362
shit. think i just subconsciously tried to copy the Krsna theme.
eRp2wk
No.1368
>>1360
kino it looks great
1EDXh1
No.1369
Do not spend so much time in front of the computer when you aren't doing research, studying or anything worth doing. watching youtube, lurking through chans for extended period of time isn't ever gonna help you
just stop
it's too much visual stimulation here
1EDXh1
No.1370
here as in 'the internet' not just bhach
1EDXh1
No.1371
id for mychan if i ever go the courage to try coding something
>text focused
>accessible from terminals
>images can be uploaded but not visible in the page. have to open it separately
>lightweight object detection model on the backend to filter porno images
>easy on eyes color theme
etc etc
1EDXh1
No.1372
most important is its text centered-ness
1EDXh1
No.1373
in terms of problem solving, yeah i am quite low iq but that can be improved, even if marginally, by lots of practice but gullibility? How do you get rid of that? the lowest iq thing I have done is to blindly accept the blackpill (in the past) and instead of just improving regardless of what the reality of the outside world and female nature was, I just threw it all out of the window and got comfortable with mediocrity. now, at 19 my I find my mental level to be on par with a 7 year old (sorry 7 year old, you might perhaps be better but I can't go lower than this without sounding retarded... am I not though?)
1EDXh1
No.1374
if you are reading through these, please know that this isn't my attempt at incelarping. I am not one but also not a normie. A failed experiment of my psyche that's somewhere in between. I remember your teachings, and try to apply them where possible. But the force of habit, almost a decade old at that, is too strong.
1EDXh1
No.1375
>>1373
the problem isn't about them, it's about the position that i/we have given them
1EDXh1
No.1376
>>1375
nah. this is a cycle. complaint, realization, complaint about the realization, realization x2 ahhhhhhhhhh it's so retarded
zg/dCA
No.1377
>>1370
Sometimes I think of doing sudoku. Life is so boring mann! More boring in this pajeetland too. No will to stoody (failing in eggzams and still not stoodying and wasted one year of my laifu), no will to do exoorcise or facelooksmaxxing. Forget about relationships with any jeeta or friendship. Only left with this helloid Intraaaaaaaaanet.
>t. 19 y.o. with midwit foolish braincells.
DGKgsn
No.1383
to be as ignorant as I am about everyday things is nothing short of shameful and deserves public sariya treatment. when all the world's information is available on the internet and it's all just a few taps and clicks away it's a choice to be dumb. no matter what your mental circumstances, except extreme medical retardation, it is no excuse to remain inside your own bubble of ignorance.
DGKgsn
No.1388
>>1377
your decision bhrata, to self-delete or not. just consider the fact that if life has come to be boring in a land as chaotic as pajeetia, there might be the need of some refactoring in your way of viewing. willpower is also a meme yaar, it's everyday habits that fuck you up.
DGKgsn
No.1389
DGKgsn
No.1390
anyways, "thoughts" dumping time
it's better to detach entirely from any sort of emotional connection with any female, at all. to not feel anything for them, neither love nor hate, is perhaps the most effective way to protect yourself from the effects of blackpill. retarded it might be, but it seems to be the only way to save yourself from long term damage.
basically do not desire them, or their company, or anything like that. not through romance, and definitely not through porn. just, remove them whereever possible.
Of course I myself do not follow this. just noting it down here as future reference.
Eij2t9
No.1401
>>1383
It's not really a choice to be dumb, the Internet is an ocean of information and we are swept up in it's currents. You first need to observe, and understand these currents in order to escape them.
25Nk3E
No.1484
DTL2zP
No.1485
Pli4sP
No.1486
>>1180(OP)
I am always forgetting small small things and something i studied, is it because of cooming daily or over use of internet daily? Anon chans advice pls
Today i wanted to learn rust or js, but procrastination alot but only studied for the eggsams
DTL2zP
No.1488
FqKdAP
No.1491
I feel like my cortisol levels are too high nowadays for no particular reason, can't even sleep properly.
Time to unplug from everything for some time now I guess.
FqKdAP
No.1492
Parents want me to go with them to every random shaadi they get invited to.
>Beta sunday ko xyz ke bete ki shaadi hai, tum bhi chal lena
nahi jaana mujhe, I have never even seen them once
>Koi baat nahi beta Marriott mei hai, khana vagera kha lena fir
It's literally the same stuff everytime
FqKdAP
No.1493
ALL of them have that very common but retarded thing where waiters are walking everywhere the whole time to serve people snacks. Why can't people just get up and get it for themselves and you have like 2 workers to serve the old people.
All this is only because lundia has excess manpower.
jzCCRu
No.1494
>>1493
>workers get rojgaar
>Budhaus get khana
everyone wins, what's wrong? unironically lundia would be a better place if such chhota mota jobs paid better
FqKdAP
No.1495
>>1494
>Budhaus get khana
Problem is that it is not just the budhaus, it is also the unkill and aunties in their 40s who don't want to do anything by themselves.
>chota mota jobs paid better
Hmm, I would not even complain if they were paid properly. But even when everything is expensive for the customer these people are not paid properly.
B7LuBH
No.1496
>>1495
you know damn well about who is eating up that extra money , i hate these makhichoos (by the way I am a nigger)s, why hoard up so much money?
1EDXh1
No.1497
my brain is officially fried. It cannot focus on tasks without the constant urge to check the phone or desktop every 5 or so minutes. It has gotten too bad adnd any further escalation would mean I have become a technological lab rat. tomorrow (today) I am not going to check bhach. Whatsapp i'll check only thrice the whole day. no music no nothing.
just for a day I want to feel peace and show this addict of a brain what real life is like. Internet can never become real life. I want to escape, and be normal. For a brief period I had become normal, but back here again I am. Not bhach per say, but my whole internet usage is me scamming myself. It is never out of curiosity that I use the net, and never to seek answers to question. For a decade of my using computers, once have I not done something productive with it. It's always to escaoe my own brain, my own shadow self, my own.... idk
using the net should have been justa more convenient way of of accessing a library along with tools that facilitate the use of the mind, not its numbing and programming to become an algorirhmized automaton.
1EDXh1
No.1498
I will jot ideas for my custom bhach theme tomorrow, inspired by Duck's design.
FqKdAP
No.1499
>>1496
True, government can put minimum salaries/hour for different jobs but that is probably a very shitty solution.
zolS4i
No.1500
>>1492
Yaar anan marriott mein toh jaana and if you got any cousin then again its a plus point you can you can talk with jeetas if you are not getting laid, who knows you might find someone you like
xkl9d1
No.1549
no man is an island
xkl9d1
No.1550
T+wwnM
No.1551
>>1550
Beautiful
9S+Kcu
No.1560
No Way Back
9S+Kcu
No.1561
Links from a youtube video. I don't know when they'd be useful but storing them anyway
- https://raytracing.github.io/
- https://learnopengl.com/Getting-started/OpenGL
- https://gamemath.com/book/intro.html
- https://immersivemath.com/ila/index.html
- https://www.scratchapixel.com/index.html
URL:
VtA7nO
No.1570
giving too much importance to feeling has also been an issue for quite some time. being this emotional as a man is shameful. to conquer these I have to be able to describe it through language. which means I need a stronger hold over language and vocabulary. okay
VtA7nO
No.1571
just like TL, I am also living my life on the Internet and on top of that suffering, or rather forcing this suffering from a greatly self-centric personality. It's evident from the number of 'I's and 'me's from my posts. It's always about me me and me. exploration of what's outside has either never seemed appealing or worth it, but there's no internal exploration either. because the moment introspection starts, all the guilt of this world befalls upon me and I go back to my sweet little coom-cave.
the shadow has been neglected soo much it can only ensure its survival through constantly guilt tripping the self and keeping it hooked
VtA7nO
No.1572
TL, i suppose, is self-centric like me. Of course he's no acquaintance to me. Just that a reply to one of his threads today made me realize......
VtA7nO
No.1573
My nunu is literally a nunu. shamefully small. In the world of men, I am bound to become a ridiculed outcasts. better start hating everyone now
VtA7nO
No.1574
>>1572
>is self centric
ISN'T
fk my fried brain trying to follow a thought chain with words more than 5
57C49M
No.1612
57C49M
No.1613
57C49M
No.1614
just posting stuff that I want to read later
>bookmark karle
no
ac31R5
No.1618
>open airways
I like this kind of ambient music. makes me feel like I am alone and connected with the world.
C0uv4w
No.1619
switched to windows 10. It's comfortable to use.
7JK7uF
No.1620
>>1619
This is the year of linux boy, tf are you doing with windows
C0uv4w
No.1621
>>1620
I use the laptop for only consooming and studying. It's not a strong enough reason to switch to linux.
1DU65X
No.1622
>>1621
What do you study
1EDXh1
No.1624
1EDXh1
No.1625
1EDXh1
No.1626
rNqTCP
No.1627
>>1208
literally me but some random anime girl that wasn't even sexualized. It's so over
1/Tt9r
No.1628
tldr: meaningless bullshit. nothing to gain
haven't fapped for a while and have partially controlled the urges to watch pron. What my brain tells me is that it's not really worth going cold turkey on porn and that in a world where I am bound to not have the chance to ever get the real thing, I am only making myself suffer by pushing away what I already have (porn and fapping). In a way, it's true. I have no moral framework to base my character on. What I might have had vaporized in 2021 or 22 (I don't remember exactly). One who is religious would have abstained for religious reasons. One who is smart and self-respecting (both aren't intersectional as a self-respecting but not so smart man can also do it) also would abstain for obvious health and mental reasons. Where am I then? Is the categorization flawed? My thinking is too accustomed to binaries and have been commented on by more than few people. Ah no it's not the categorization. Am just evading the actual reality here. I have just no self-respect or the mental fortitude against things of this nature.
Anyways. I had felt hope until recently. Those moments made the world seem almost bearable, mainly because it calmed my mind. And when the mind is calm, the world seems to adjust itself to that calmness. I forgot then all my limitations and obvious red flags in character. I started hoping for a better future when in fact it wasn't really meant for me. And in the process hurt more than one person. Sorry yaar. I really am not cut out for things like that, hope and shit. I hope it was all in my head and it didn't affect anyone else, but that too would just be wishful thinking.
Hope is a drug, and I overdosed.
About porn then, I don't know. I really don't. What to do with these urges. Or rather, what to do with the very probable image of a future where, if I ascend, I'd be met with challenges far greater than my current ones. Resisting what I know is bad is anytime easier than resisting something good but which I am not meant to wield. Things like friendship, connection, love and the likes. (kek'd. Even in despair I somehow believe things like that are possible for an pathetic imageboard dwelling retardjeet). The thought of being spared the responsibility of rejecting these, if they are ever offered by the universe to me, is too tempting.
stuck yaar. fk this.
listen to this song, it's good.
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Hq5aT/
No.1637
felt better after writing some bs above. All this confusion and retardation is a side effect of severe lack of focused work and necessary hardships in my life.
thanks admin for making this site.
Wnr/0f
No.1645
>>1637
padhai nahi karna sehat ke liye hanikarak hai.
+lz2l0
No.1672
- kensuke ushio - lit
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captcha: hUTi
chZBD2
No.1681
i regret not using my brain when it clearly told me the video of that attack in karachi didn't look right. esp the argument against road quality. jumped in the happening wagon too early. I need to practice some restraint and use my fuarking brain some more.
WQclX3
No.1682
zg/dCA
No.1688
>>1681
Not doing work and only using internet will fuck you up hard pajeet. You're the experiment generation.
Ow44ul
No.1692
>>1688
I fear I have already crossed the getting fucked hard stage. Not using my brain has become the default mode of living for me. The consequences have been obvious till now. Forgetting things that someone told me minutes ago, forgetting words to describe feelings/scenarios, fumbling while talking and expressing a thought slightly more complicated then "I am hungry" or "I want food." etc.
Will abandon this thread and make a new one. Will only post hopepill or self-improvement shit there. The longer this thought of being a failure persists, harder it would be to ever improve my condition.
zg/dCA
No.1695
>>1692
Same happening with me anon. I'll suggest you to don't make another thread and abandon this whole imageboard for forever. I have same problems just like you. My mind is not working from last 7 years. I guess cooming makes you autistic and schizo. I want to die, kek but not possible. Only hope is spirituality and settling with envy. Singing out.
QBIju6
No.1744
are you afraid of caring too deep?
are you afraid of loving something for real?
are you prone to mocking those who actually love something?
do you think it's "childish" to have genuine interests?
do you dislike nerds for not clouding themselves with the way you are?
are you so unbearable that every silent minute is unbearable and you need to constantly shut your brain up with noise or sleep?
are you so deprived of validation that being the way you actually are seems to be the biggest crime possible?
yes yaar.
@dyaush nuke this thread plz.
mADpr0
No.1745
>t. palco/nully/stellar
Ak9DeU
No.1763
>Tis better to have loved and lost/Than never to have loved at all
>Tennyson
It hurts but I agree with him.
Ak9DeU
No.1764
also,
there are still miles to go before I sleep.
