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Some sort of a useless renaissance
tGldlN
No.563471
I can feel it, in my brain. I've quit college, and im totally free. Im scared but I feel it.
My brain isn't just working, its free again, I guess I feel safe or quiet or relaxed enough to ooze out this gigantic conceptual ulta-fere that my brain loves to watch.
So many feelings, thoughts, its a renaissance inside my head, but it could be utterly useless should I not capitalize and stock and cut and grain and ripen this, it feels like a sort of degradation of a godly ordained ideal, but you gotta pay the bills.
I spent the morning just steeped into something else and I can feel it, I feel it, I can feel the creative spirits connection within my mind.
It's hard to describe and but imagine it like this, you know how you know what idea is yours and what isn't?
I get a feeling, some strange feeling, its like a cassette tape of total feelings and emotions, raw feeling, from somewhere else seemingly entirely, at times. It doesnt even feel MINE, its so sharp and so clear, MY ideas are in comparison bland or just derivative.
I've relied all my creative life on this, every sort of great idea I've had is inspired from this space. Its definitely not mine, because I know that Im stealing a glance at something pure, something so clear that I can "see" it, but there is a complicated sense of visuals there.
I've been connected all my life, its like Salman Rushdie say's in his book "Haroun and the Sea of Stories" He has a subscription to a magical sea of stories, that manifests in a magical tap that can be drunk from to create mix and match pure stories.
I'm certain that it's real, in what form doesnt matter, it's great that science will never understand it, and that I will always be congratulated on basically what is, fishing big game, nothing of my own creation.
Most of these idea fishes, are useless, they're AMAZING to feel, I hope you feel it too, maybe you do, its like, something strikes you out of somewhere, and there is an invisible knot, a FEELING that conjoins every other idea you had, and it creates this Patina, that is so special it cannot even be written down to experienced at will.
Anyway, sorry the for schizo rant, I can just feel extremely connected to it in safety and isolation.
I feel good, good things are to come now.
MRMp6/
No.563472
renaissance is a white man's thing
tGldlN
No.563474
>>563472
Fucking troglodyte. GTFO cheap bait
q97jTz
No.563476
Yaar haggu
tGldlN
No.563477
>>563471(OP)
A youtube channel, a blog and more space to create and post art is now warranted. I'm involved in a huge project adjacent to what I do, its still art, but I gotta start my own shit.
I need to quantify these thoughts into something, and I have a feeling once I do, it will lead to good, good in the sense i want it.
eH3qJp
No.563487
>>563471(OP)
This is the high you experience after quitting something that was giving you immense pressure. It'll go away after a few days and you'll start feeling another pressure. The pressure of figuring out how to make a living now you've quit college.
tGldlN
No.563489
>>563481
I mean technically there is no pressure from my parents. Its not a quitting high, when I left college i was crying and acquiesced, very saddened.
I have, basically for the next 10-15 years no pressure to even earn an Ana.
But I do need to live my life, and i do need to fulfill my own subscription.
tGldlN
No.563491
>>563489
I was never doing a STEM or a highly ROI rich degree either way.
eH3qJp
No.563495
>>563491
So what are you doing next?
G6zv6j
No.563496
tGldlN
No.563504
>>563495
Working on a real beneficial project, something that has already made me a lot of fame, and doing it again, I will get a lot of bene.
after this, hopefully, travelling the world unironically.
>>563496
Still doing a degree, just quit the fulltime college, no good was coming of it. tried it for a year.
G6zv6j
No.563505
>>563489
oh okay, never mind then. If your baap or unkill has bijness then college is optional
eH3qJp
No.563508
>>563504
>Working on a real beneficial project, something that has already made me a lot of fame
What is it? Give us a hint? Is it tech related?
tGldlN
No.563509
>>563496
I find it uniquely cringe whenever I hear comparisons made between madness and vision. It's not like the same or comparable but I will need to make it.
I'm mad, most likely, but I was born this way, I never gave JEE or NEET and fortu-or-unfortunately I had parents who enabled/supported this way of living, creating some sort of a strange retard.
G6zv6j
No.563510
>>563504
are you talking about correspondence? you the Psychology student from earlier?
G6zv6j
No.563513
>>563509
na yr, it's gud
if yuo hav an actual vision and know how to work your way through to achieve it, that is
tGldlN
No.563516
>>563505
>>563508
its not tech related and I cannot divulge any details, it's HIGHLY beneficial and brings great fame and cultural currency. Not much of money tho, but It's def worth it.
Idk why im writing here, I like bharatchan because its like I can publish my thought and have it be read instantly, its the best blogging site for me. But Im starting up a youtube and a real blog.
Sad that I can never associate my reality here. But its fine
tGldlN
No.563519
>>563510
Im an arts student, fine art.
830ATP
No.563523
tGldlN
No.563527
eH3qJp
No.563569
>>563527
Well good luck with your endeavors.
XnXABY
No.563592
>>563471(OP)
Only two things to say. Go vegan and use antiparasitics to completely fix brain blocks (roundworms and other pathogens cause this,) and run a MQL5 bot on XAUUSD for a free money hack.
If USD goes down something else will be currency paired to it. This is a forever thing. If there's some scarce material in the afterlife same thing, bot the market for the one most popular material.
jEDaAt
No.563597
>>563592
Yaar pratty what the fuck are you even saying
